I'm just going to be starting over on my blogging journey...
So I will sorta explain why, And I'm sorry if I offend anyone with this post, Also I'm quite a worry wart, And I'm probably making a big deal outta nothing, Overthinking and/or misjudging/misunderstanding , I know your guys are such nice people, And I applaud you all for sharing your opinions without caring about what others may say, And you put it out there with pride. :)
Well, one thing is I just.. I don't know, Feel like the elephant in the room? It's just Lot's of the blogging community feel so on the same page, I'm not saying that's a bad thing, Not at all! It's just...
Okay, let's just talk about this... Sorta as an example...
So as I've found out, Some of the bloggers seem to be very against it, Saying how evil it is.. and with that to the point just dressing up in costumes is evil because you are being someone your not..? I mean what about like actors!? They do plays, movies, and stuff, So does that mean their bad too?! Or what about Disney park workers who dress up as the characters! I'm sorry but I just can't wrap my head around that...
And as for me, I celebrate Halloween, I always have, And when I started seeing all these "Christians should never celebrate Halloween" Kinda posts, I started to feel, I don't know, Cornered? Because I started seeing that how much some of you hated it, And here I was celebrating, And I really wanted to talk about it in my posts and things, But I didn't because of reading what some say about it, And if I did I thought I could end up in a mess, So I just hoped that I could get away with pretending I didn't celebrate.
Or like with Christian music.
So I remember it was a blogger party, And we played a game and it was like "Guess the song" But it was all Christian music, And Christian music is fine! If that's what you wanna listen to then you do that, I hold nothing against you, But the problem was is that I don't listen to it.
Lots of the bloggers seem to be into all the same "Christian bands" And I've never heard of any of them, Probably because I know none at all. So I felt very out of place, And I also remember being asked if I was Christian, I said yes, And so I guess that means if you are Christian you automatically listen to their music?
So that's another thing, I do believe in God, But I have my own little point of view on HIM.
One thing is that in my household, We believe in HIM, But we aren't all that religious, We don't go to church, (We used to though) Be we moved and there's none close to us.
I feel like If you Love, Trust and believe in HIM, He'll love you back, And I feel this is true, Because I've prayed before, For my sister when she had to go to the emergency room for an allergic reaction and she had a hard time breathing, Thankfully she was alright, And when Percy got "sick" I prayed for him and he was a perfectly healthy bird, Just stressed, And was back to himself in an instant.
So sure, Celebrate Halloween, Doesn't go to church, So on so forth, Call me a "Fake Christian" if you want.. But I'm not gonna hide in this mold I've created to blend in and change who I am, how I think and believe just to please you, Because I like how I am, I may not do everything right like how I should be, I should have told you from the start, But It was too late when I almost got their, Because I figured you guys thought I was more like you, Or something like that, And I felt connected to the blogger community, So I thought that I would ruin it if I said anything. But with that I've just felt so squished more and more, Seeing the fog lift away from the big gap between me and the some of the community I regretted my choice, Because If I said all this, in the beginning, I wouldn't be writing this!
I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings, I just really needed to get this out, I just don't want anyone to think I'm someone I'm not anymore, I was trying to avoid it because I wanted to make friends for once, But that leads to more clearer differences, To the point that's all I saw, I felt limited, Adding on to the mold, I just didn't want to post anymore, Because I felt like something I would say would just be another regret, As I'm still seeing how big the gap could be.
You should always be yourself, Because the closer you become could really be widening the gap, Because they may close to you, Or are they just close to the mold you've created?
Being yourself is what creates true friendships, Not the fake you, The fake you that tries to be just like them and like all the same things just to keep the bond growing, Or to even start.
That's what I've learned, Let everyone see you as you are, Because you will always have those differences, How you look, How you act, What one likes that you don't, But as they say, Opposites attract And finding those differences could be an issue for some, Sure. But they could also be what makes you find each other so interesting and why you want to be friends, Or why you already are. It can show new a perspective on life, Find your next big obsession, And even give you the courage to try something new and maybe find that hidden talent inside, Or just have a time you won't forget.
Alright, Since I've got that out of the way, Let's go over with what I mean "Starting Over".
So I'm going to stop posting on this blog and Budgie Photographers for one, So if you are interested in still reading what I gotta say, I'm working on a new blog which I tell you about next.
So my new blog will not be just about AJ, It's not that I'm losing interest in it, It's just I CAN'T stick to a theme! Because I will get all these ideas about everything but AJ, And so I try to push myself to make an AJ post, But I don't want to because my mind is set on something else..XD My brain just keeps going against me. So now I'm gonna start posting about all sorts of things, Such as "Top _BLANK _ Lists", Life, Reviews on the AJ box, Dolls, And whatever else, Just talking about my Obsessions, Rants, Lot's of other stuff, And of course Percy! So now I can POST ABOUT ANYTHING MAWHAHAHA!
Also if anyone liked Budgie Photographers, I'll be posting pictures on my new blog.
Will I am not deleting this blog nor Budgie Photographers, They will just be here catching digital dust.
I think that clears up most of it...
But I just want to thank everyone who supported this blog soooooooooo much, Every view meant so much to me, And all the amazing comments that wore left just warmed my heart so much. I can't tell you enough how special it made me feel. c': And part of me really wished it could have had a longer run, But again, A fresh start is what I needed, But I will always remember the great times I had with this blog and you guys. :) And I'm not asking you to read my new blog if you don't want to, That's perfectly okay with me. :P Because I'm not gonna care anymore, I'm gonna do what I please, So if it offends you then please, Just leave.
But your welcome to come along the ride to a fresh start. :3
So hello, I'm Talloose.
And welcome to my world..